The Stanford Family

The Stanford Family

"I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him." 1 Samuel 1:27

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"A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bank balance smaller, home happier, clothes dirtier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for."



Friday, May 28, 2010

Kinsley's 11 Week Milestone

At 11 weeks old yesterday, Kinsley wanted to show mommy and daddy what a big girl she has become by going 11 hours - 11 HOURS! - between feedings last night and slept from 9:30pm to 6am this morning! And she didn't even wake up crying! What? Crazy! I cannot believe how amazing and well-rested I felt...I literally have not slept an entire night since sometime early in my first trimester...back around August. Wow. What a great feeling! I just pray that it lasts and that this wasn't just a fluke. :) She's also started to sit up in her big-girl Bumbo chair - albeit, with a little help. Hunter likes to check on her too.



She also had a check-up this morning with her pediatrician after the heart appointments earlier this week. Our little one is catching up on the weight...9 lbs 4 oz! So, even though she is spitting-up a lot, she is gaining weight! Partially due to the fact that we have incorporated rice cereal into her bottles. We were also told that acid reflux has not been ruled out, and that our ped is not 100% sure that her aberrant artery that pressing on her esophagus isn't at least a small part of the spit-up problem (see my previous blog post if this last sentence confused you at all). Plus, they want to be sure that the "reflux" is not starting to burn her throat / esophagus every time it comes up since she is starting to show some signs of discomfort. So we are off to the GI Specialist on June 8th.

This weekend, we are headed to Lake Oconee with Philip's family for Memorial Day. And mommy has started off the weekend on a positive note as well: for the first time since I can't remember how long ago, I am back into at least one pair of my regular "pre-pregnancy" jeans. And they are BUTTONED! They might be a little snug, but still...they're on! These last 10 lbs of baby weight are proving to be VERY stubborn, but there's something wonderful about slowly moving from maternity clothes back to your regular clothes that is very good for one's self-esteem. I am still, however, looking forward to wearing a tankini this weekend up at the lake. I reserve my bikini for the privacy of my own backyard pool for now...not ready for the public eye just yet. :) Ahhh, how life has changed since last summer. But this change has been amazingly worth it!



Tuesday, May 25, 2010

It all started with spit-up...


We have battled excessive spit-up with Kinsley from the start. Even in her days in NICU, she just loved eating so much, that she would "bring it back up" for us to "see" again. :) No matter if it was formula, even the mildest of formulas, breastmilk, with rice cereal mixed-in or without, Zantac or Nizatidine, nothing seemed to work. And the worst part is, we don't know when it's coming...sometimes (rarely) not coming back up at all...and sometimes it's right after a feeding with force as a projectile, and other times it's 2 hours later for no reason, usually catching whoever is holding her completely off guard. I feel like she should wear a t-shirt with the saying from the sign that I remembered seeing at Splash Mtn. when we used to go to Six Flags..."You Will Get Wet, You Might Get Soaked."

So last Thursday, after spitting back up a majority of what I had just fed her (and to me, pumped breastmilk is like gold), I decided to call our pediatrician to see if there was anything else we could try going into the weekend. Her next ped appt was not until June 11th. I contemplated just waiting it out until then and discussing new options at her next appt...I mean, "all babies spit up" right? I have heard this countless times. But something just didn't feel right. Something wasn't right. I felt like there was a problem. I now am fully aware that I had experienced my first dose of "mother's intuition"...and it didn't let me down.

After talking through the symptoms with the ped nurse, we were asked to come into Children's Healthcare of Atlanta's radiology center for an ultrasound on Friday to see if they could rule out signs of pyloric stenosis (see previous blog posting from last week). Good news...it was clear. So one procedure down, and one scary condition ruled out. Check.

Yesterday (Monday) morning, we were headed back to CHOA for a Barium Swallow (the nastiest white chalky looking stuff I have ever seen...like thick, white primer paint) and chest/tummy x-ray. We were supposed to be going to "confirm" what we all thought the problem was...acid reflux. Something that I knew all too well from pregnancy, and know how uncomfortable it is. I just thought that if they could diagnose it, and we could move onto a different method of feeding, medicine, etc to help ease her discomfort. That's what I thought, anyway. The news we got was much different. I got a call from Kinsley's ped himself yesterday afternoon, not his nurse...my first sign that something might not be right. He explained that while we could rule out acid reflux, something else had popped up on the x-ray...an impression on the wall of her esophagus, something pressing against it that shouldn't be there. "She has an aberrant artery"......

Artery? What? Heart? I thought it was just acid reflux? Now I start hearing words like cardiologist, EKG, etc...what? It was something so rarely caught in babies that our ped, who's been practicing for over 30 years, didn't have much information to give us. So, an aberrant artery...she has a major artery that's "not where it should be." We prepared ourselves for the worst...surgery...and prayed for the best...nothing.

Today, our prayers were answered, and we got some further information on Kinsley's condition. She has an aberrant right subclavian artery, which technically means that she has a congenital heart defect, but a benign one...thank goodness. It occurs in 1 out of 200 people. So, it's not common, but not uncommon either. Essentially, where most normal hearts have 3 main arteries leading from the aorta to the rest of the body, and one of those 3 arteries splits off into 2 (for a total of 4), Kinsley's 3rd artery never "branches off"...instead, she has a separate 4th artery coming directly from her aorta and it is wrapping around the back of her esophagus. Confused? The image below should help...image #1 on the left is Kinsley's heart..image #2 on the right is a normal heart.


So, no surgery (yay!), and she goes back at 6 months for another EKG and Echocardiogram. Then, she'll most likely be "monitored" throughout childhood for any issues, but should go on to just be a normal, happy, healthy little girl. What a blessing! As a friend told me today: "she's just got more heart to love with." So, so true.

And as for the spitting up? We have an appt in June with a GI specialist to get to the bottom of that. But were it not for the spit-up in the first place, we would have never discovered the bigger issue. And I have learned a lesson in all this: babies can't talk, they can't tell you what hurts or what's wrong, so we as mommies and daddies are their only voice. A parent's intuition. I will always go with my gut moving forward.

Our Kinsley is such a trooper...with everything she has had gone through in her first 10 1/2 weeks on this earth...my placental abruption, a c-section 5 weeks early, 14 days in NICU, C-Pap's, IV's, feeding tubes, heart monitors, countless pricks with needles, jaundice, ultrasounds, x-rays, EKG's, Echocardiograms...and still her newly-discovered ability to smile and coo lights up the room and makes being her mommy the best thing I have ever experienced.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Well, she's found it...


...her thumb, that is. Uh oh.



But I am happy to report she's found two other things that she also loves, and these things make life a little easier! Thank you, Nap Nanny and Baby Bjorn...


Friday, May 21, 2010

Today...Updated

Later this afternoon we are taking a trip to a specialist/doctor to try and figure out why Kinsley has a hard time keeping her meals down. Ultrasound at 3:00pm to try and rule out a condition in infants called pyloric stenosis, which basically causes babies to force their food back up instead of digesting it properly. I say "rule out" because we pray that she doesn't have this...it could mean surgery as early as later today. If the ultrasound is negative, then it's off to a GI specialist to do a barium swallow test and x-ray to determine any other factors. Prayers for our little girl. Update to follow...

UPDATE: the ultrasound was clear! Whew! But Kinsley did NOT like the ultrasound...I think it was the gel and someone messing with her tummy. I tried to explain to her that I had several of those done not too long ago to see her inside me...she didn't seem to care. It was kinda crazy watching my little 2 month old have the same procedure done to her that us grown-up ladies have when we're pregnant. But the Children's Healthcare people were great. The funniest thing was that the flat screen TV above the bed with the cartoons playing caught Kinsley's eye...she just stared at it for about 5 minutes. I think she has discovered TV...hopefully, she won't be into the trashy reality shows like her mama.

So, what's next? Well, we go back Monday morning and do the Barium thing and the upper GI X-ray to see if they can ID the problem...possibly acid reflux? I don't know, but I so want her to have some relief...and to keep her food down so she can gain some weight. Hopefully we have a good weekend and good news next week!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

2 months has come and gone



Time is flying...I feel like just yesterday we just brought our sweet little girl home from the hospital. So last week, Kinsley turned 9 weeks (well, 4 weeks) and hit the 2 month mark. And we also had her 2 month check-up! I was dreading this appt since I knew that the 2-month appt is notorious for SHOTS...but with Kinsley being a preemie and us having a wonderfully conservative pediatrician, they decided to hold off on giving her the first dose of immunizations until her 3 month check-up, when they expect that she should be closer to the 10 lb mark. Fine with me! With all the controversy about shots and the issues that can be linked to them, it made me feel better to hold off...especially with her being smaller than the typical 2-month old. And as far as the other results of her check-up, she is doing really well:
  • 8 lbs 1.2 oz
  • 20.5" (grown 3" since birth)
  • 3% for height and 3% for weight (which is great that she is even on the charts as a preemie!)

I can't believe how time has flown...I mean, I had heard that it goes fast, but wow.



Kinsley and the 'Rents


Here are a few photos of Kinsley and her grandparents and great-grandparents from the past few weeks!

Kinsley and BeeBee


Kinsley and Papa


Kinsley and MayMay


Kinsley and Pop


Kinsley with her "Great" Mom-Mom


Kinsley with her "Great" Pop-Pop


Kinsley with her "Great" Nanny and Pappa-Tim


Kinsley with her "Great" Grandma

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Mother's Day 2010


As our baby girl turns 2 months today, I reflect on what a great weekend we had as we celebrated our first Mother's Day. So odd that I AM the mom this time. I am so used to celebrating my mom and mother-in-law...now someone will be celebrating "me?" Still hard to comprehend. But it was a wonderful weekend celebrating with our families and both of our incredible mom's!










As I reflect on the past year and what it means to me to be a new mom, here is a list of "I Never's" that come to mind....

I never thought that I...

would be a mommy on this Mother's Day.

would - or could - love someone so much.

would have a stronger marriage and deeper love for my husband because of this child.

would do more loads of an Kinsley's laundry than mine and Philip's combined.

would be so excited to just sit, hold, and rock our baby girl.

would be sooo tired.

would cry...over nothing, really...and all the time.

would feel so protective.

would find it hard someday's to find time to eat breakfast AND lunch.

would be so afraid of doing something the "wrong" way.

would take the time to just s-l-o-w down.

would actually put one of those yellow "Baby on Board" magnets on my car.

would feel comfortable caring for something so precious.

would sing "The Wheels on the Bus" in the car with the AC on, vs. singing something by the Black Eyed Peas with the windows down & sunroof open.

would not be grossed out by a dirty diaper or spit-up.

would think the most perfect smell in the world is Kinsley's head. Pure and simple.

would be taking walks around the neighborhood with my dog and my baby at the same time.

would be so "breathless" on those walks. Out-of-shape....Whew.

would rather stay-in, than go-out.

would think bath time is my favorite time of day.

would become a morning person.

would be chosen by God to care for this precious girl.


The Lord had a plan long ago...that Philip and I would meet in college, date for a few years, get married, move around, then settle back by our families, and become a mom & dad to Kinsley. I am finally living out one very important part of God's plan for my life as Kinsley's mom. I can't wait to see what else He has in store for me.

On this Mother's Day, I thank my little Kinsley-bean...oh yes, and you too, Philip :)...for making me a mommy. I hope that I live up to the challenge, and I can't wait for the rest of the journey.

Baby girl...we are so proud of everything you have overcome so far. Every single thing about you is precious to us, and all that we do in life now is about our family and what is best for you. We love you so, so much.
-Mom




Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Playing dress-up!

Mommy + Kinsley + cute baby girl clothes + digital camera + Mac computer = dress-up time!










Monday, May 3, 2010

Lucky #7

Kinsley is 7+ weeks and 7+ lbs!

This past weekend was a milestone weekend for us! On Friday, Kinsley had a ped appt and her weekly weight check...and our 7-week-old broke the 7 lb mark, at 7 lb 3.8 oz to be exact! We are just now getting her close to what the doctors suspected would have been her birth weight had we made it longer in the pregnancy. I am so proud of her! She is tracking a good 2 - 2.5 lbs behind her baby friends that were born around the same time as her but at full term, so that's right about where we expect her to be...and she's doing great! I did confirm with the pediatrician that developmentally, she is doing really, really well...but I have to keep reminding myself that her development is based on her gestational age, not her actual age...in other words, developmentally, she is that of a "2 week old," not a 7 week old...tracking back about 5 weeks. And even though that's the case, in the words of our pediatrician: "this baby is firing on all cylinders"...of course, that made me feel good! She's lifting her head all the time, pushing against anything with her legs to "propel herself" up or forward, constantly active and moving, starting to find her smile (see previous blog posting), her grunting is turning into more baby-like sounds, and we are moving from 2 oz of food per feeding to 3 oz...but we are still feeding every 3 hours, even at night. :)

So to celebrate our good doctor appt on Friday, we met up with my mom and dad for lunch at CPK...Kinsley's first restaurant outing! This was big for me too as we had to feed her while there (bottle, I am not one of those breastfeeding-in-public-kind-of-gals) and change her for the first time in a public restroom - good thing we were in a clean, newer restaurant! After lunch, it was off to so a little outdoor shopping on a beautiful Friday with mom at The Forum...I think I had a teeny, tiny little pre-Mother's Day shopping spree for myself. Needed to find some summer clothes that fit a little less snug than my regular "pre-baby" clothes do right now...ahhh, the joy of carrying a little baby weight as we near the summer months - the word "bikini" just plain scares me.

I capped Friday with dinner on the patio at Aomi with Philip and Kinsley...and have I mentioned that this entire time Kinsley was a PERFECT ANGEL??? She was incredible...she is proving time and time again that she loves to be outdoors, loves to be in her car seat & stroller, and loves to be out of the house to go on a walk or a car ride. It is funny to see people's reactions when they peek in and see her...they all think that she is "sooo tiny," always asking how old she is. I always jump to her defense, telling them she was just a little early. And maybe it's just me, but I just don't see her as tiny anymore...to me, she's getting to be a big girl, but then again, I am her mom. And it's been fun chatting here and there with other mom's that I run into at the store...like there's some new common bond that we have because of our strollers - or should I say, what's in our strollers. :)

The rest of the weekend, we tried to continue on Friday's success, also going out to La Parilla Saturday for our 2nd family dinner outing...we did go at 5:30 to beat the crazy crowds, but still, we went. Sunday was time with both sets of grandparents. It was a great weekend. Just one more step in getting some aspect of normalcy back into our lives after spending pretty much the first 6 weeks of her life caged up here at the house since she was premature...it was nice to get out. I could get used to this. After weeks of being in NICU and having to "stay at home," I feel like we are finally having the "maternity leave" that we expected to have. I can't believe how fast it's gone...

Content in her car seat...loves being in the car and in her stroller...and would you just look at those cheeks?


Kinsley falling asleep with a full tummy as mommy and daddy get ready to leave to go have dinner with her Friday night.